Stepping Out of Sackcloth

"You have turned my mourning into dancing; You have loosed my sackcloth and girded me with gladness, that my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent." Ps 30 11-12a NASB

As a child I was constantly singing. My earliest memory is walking outside on a spring day and making up songs of praise to God. But in the past three years I've been silent.

My voice was silenced by the weight of loss, trauma, betrayal, hurt, anger, bitterness and unforgiveness. My chest was so crushed it made breathing almost impossible at times. I only had enough air to survive.

But God delivered me to freedom. He hid me in His secret place. He held me, loved me, healed me and forgave me. He loosed my sackcloth but I had to decide to step out of it and let it go: loss, trauma, betrayal, hurt, anger, bitterness, and unforgiveness - especially to myself.

This is a process. And, like all processes, requires time and patience. There were months of one step forward two steps back. But there were also moments of mighty leaps as if I had the feet of a doe.

It is only now from this place of dancing, rejoicing, singing and thanksgiving I truly see the hand of God in all things. He is sovereign. I am His creation. I am not a victim. I am a much loved child.

Are you finding it hard to breath in difficult circumstances? Has loss, trauma, betrayal, hurt, anger, bitterness and unforgiveness paralyzed you? Has your voice been silenced?

If you feel darkness and pressure all around trust that God has you wrapped in His arms and is hiding you in His secret place. Trust He is good and that His love endures forever.

"Weeping may last for the night but a shout of joy comes in the morning" Ps 30:5b

I am available if you want to reach out.